My Life! My World!

A butterfly story

// October 18th, 2007 // Comments // Poems

I was walking.
Thought I should run.
And I started running.
I was glad to flash past faces,
turned and waved at them.
And I rolled on.

Something caught my eye.
And my head refused to turn straight.
I slowed down.

It was a butterfly.
A white one.
It was beautiful.
And it smiled at me.
I walked. It tagged along.

We spoke. And spoke. And spoke.
I thought it needed me.
And I needed it.
And we spoke.

The butterfly found flying hard.
The wind hurt. Its wings hurt.
It rested on my shoulder.
And we moved on.

It had its shadow on me.
And it felt safe that way.
I had my thoughts on it.
And I felt love that way.

There was peace.
It slept.
There was music.
And I danced.

The wind is calmer now.
I don know why,
It wants to fly.
And it flew.

I wanted to jog along.
But it didnt let me.
That hurt.
I walked.

It came back.
Saw me frown.
It smiled.
So did I.
And it flew.

It is watching me from a distance.
It wants to fly.
Not away from me.
Not with me.

There is something that doesnt let it fly away.
Something that doesnt make me run away.
I walk.
And I want to run.
With music and dance.

I know I would.
Sun rises in the east.
Well, really?
Venus, the goddess of love, smiles.

All you need is….

// September 18th, 2007 // Comments // Poems

I am trying….
I have grown, I know.
Fate has been kind to me.
Life has been fair, or so I thought….
I am running short of energy.
I need love. I have always.
When I think my life is great,
Life shows there is something greater.

Then I start pursuing it,
And I end up nowhere.
I look around, everything is new.
I have come a long way, can’t retreat
I try to to sow my seeds.
And Life starts to feel great,
Life shows there is something greater.

I have grown all these days.
I remember when nothing hurt
I remember when everything hurt
Now I believe I can handle ‘em all, Or so I think…..
One moment am confident
Am happy and in bliss
And the next moment in doubt,
Am I?

Life goes on,
doesn’t wait to enlighten me..
Life is beautiful, or so I think….
It is simple. It is complex.
It sings.

I need love. I have always.
I am trying to love myself.
I love myself, or so I think…….
I need people. I need smiles.
I need hi’s. I need laughter.
I am needy.

I am trying to be at peace with myself.
Telling everything is ok.
I know people love me.
I am ok, or so I think….
I have grown,and so have my thoughts.
Filling me with doubts,
which almost always are seldom true.

I am not feeling home.
I doubt my path.
I dont give my best, or so I think…..
I am trying to listen,
My heart has been yelling.
Its very noisy.
I need calmness.
I need love. I have always.